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Good one Cecil. Creatives can be haunted by it since their much of their process is internal so can always be suspect. But it could be more important for others who might duck the question at their day jobs.

Just that we can, hopefully all of us, have agency to have a philosophy, and so necessarily be alive seems to be priceless.

Annette Wilzig's avatar

WOW!!!!! What a fantastic article you have written here! It immediately made me think about so many things. While I've had specific "written in stone" beliefs I realize that that stone can also be at times like styrafoam and I can re-write those beliefs as I learn, do some critical thinking, and keep an open mind and heart to keep educating myself. But still are some non-changing beliefs and truths for me that don't/won't change. In the past week and a half, I've been thinking about not having gone into my studio to create. I've been in tremendous pain in my body, scared what that can be yet too stubborn to not go to my Dr's hoping it'll dissipate. This pain has had me in tears every day and observing myself objectively is an interesting thing. There's anger, frustration, feelings of worthlessness as I fantasize obtaining one of those gentle death pods that Canada is pushing on their citizens. I've broken things in the kitchen, cried out to some god that I question whether or not He's even existing, and crawled into bed to escape the misery and pity party as well as take too many meds/drugs to take that edge off. I've barely given any thought to making art yet there's an underlying missing being in there as when I'm in the studio, all my woes usually leave as I find myself into that beautiful ZONE. Sorry this is so long. I'll get better. I have to. As much as I obsess about death, I know I have a lot to live for as the cliche' goes. Merry whatever everyone. Cecil, you look so happy in that photo. I miss Happy. I'd settle for Contentment again. And less pain would be nice so I could feel gratitude again.

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